- Mood: Sad/Stressed
- Music: Sugga Sugga.
Do I have the words "Treat Her Like Shit, She Has No feelings" Tattoed to my forehead, I'm sooo tired of all this, I'm tired of trying to help ppl casue it just ends up blowing up in my face or kicking me in my ass later.. My mom is so fucking selfish it makes me so fucking sick.. It's always poor me poor me .. egh She never listens when you have anything to say, and when she speaks she expects you to listen which I just tend to tune her out and talk back now, It's my only defence to her shit and abuse.. I have sacrificed my whole life, well really what life have I had for my family.. To add to all this I don't really know that my brother is going to graduate, I don't want to give up on him but I can only help him with his english If he wants help, and until then I can only push so far to get him to work, I got further then i have today I will admit It's going to be hard but I'm not giving up on him like mom just seems to wanna do, she wants to push him to get done by march but realistically it isnt going to happen, I have faith in him, hew may not pass with great marks but ima make damn sure it's at least a passing mark.. But it's all catching up, I'm just way stressed out I need a vacation ....
I have been forever trying to think of away to let the three of you know how much you have done for me, the so many things you have showen and taught me.. And I would just likethe threeof you to know It's all very appreciated, I don't know what I would have done with out you Three.. So here in this next few line is a Poem I dedicate to all of you ..
Friendships Like Ours
There's a rare kind of friend
Who knows just what to do
When to talk, when to listen,
How to be there for you.
A friend who inspires you
To grow in new ways,
A friend who'll be there
On both good and bad days.
There's a rare kind of friend
Who makes life worth living
By encouraging, praising,
sharing, and giving.
A friend who can see things
From your point of view,
The best kind of friend,
The rare kind... like the three of you..
- Mood: Depressed
- Music: Disturbed
I can't say today was one the best of days, The past always just seems to come out of nowhere and kick ya in your ass I tell ya never any fun when it knocks on your door. well in the end of our whole big disscusion, which Im not sure my brother or mom really took anything out of it, I hope it did to some degree I hate being in the middle of everything thing, feel like your being torn in half, But I trully understand where both are comeing from. In the end it was desided that my brother would move in with me, If it is the best thing for him I don't know only time wil tell..
Only time will tell...
- Mood: Curious
- Music: Black Label Society
My biggest flaw is that I care entirely too much, even if I don't know someone very well, I still care, its in my nature and I doubt that will ever change. My other large flaw is that I am very analytical, I think far into things and it sometimes causes me to take things to heart, and that also means that I don't pick up on the most obvious things, but if it takes a good deal of thinking then most likely I will find an answer.
At this point in my life I'm discovering new things and contemplating where I want to go in my life.
I think I am meant to be alone and in pain, its the curse of a poet.
Still In search of that answer...
Your imaging it 
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